It’s so true.
You, for instance, have a stupid topknot.
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It’s so true.
You, for instance, have a stupid topknot.
So I had a meeting with the person from Big Local Event, who emailed me last week and asked if they could use my illustrations (for free, and that troubled me a bit). And I’m glad I did, because there was more to it than met the eye - things are different from how they appeared to be. There was money for everyone to get paid last year, because apparently Tesco donated a huge wad of cash as an exercise in community relations to make up for knocking down our ice rink, but now that the new store is open they don’t care enough about community relations to fund it again. So there really is no money, and actually no one is getting paid.
And I actually had a good discussion with her. And I raised my issues about the things that bothered me about the marketing material from last year, and she totally agreed with it all. And then I raised my issues about how I was worried that I would end up getting “paid” for my illos with a show, i.e. “stuff that requires a whole bunch more work from me” and she completely understood that, and was all “how can we work around that?” And she could not actually believe that I didn’t already sell prints. Because she said that she actually also runs craft markets, locally, and she thought my drawings were actually a lot better than stuff that already sold tons at craft markets, blah blah, etc etc flatter flatter. And I should just do prints of posters and mugs and tea towels and the like, especially because if they use my illos for the flyer/promotional materials, that will be a massive advert going out to 30,000 people, and they’d give me a half page ad saying “if you like the art on the cover, you can get your own print of it!”
I’m totally torn. Because there’s a part of me that sees the sense of it, and the idea that I could turn these little scribbles that I do anyway, into posters and tea towels and mugs and actually get people to give me money for them, blimey, that’s amazing! And then the other half is all “oh god, I will spend the rest of my life doing retail, selling posters and mugs and tea towels and never get any time to actually draw. ARGH.” But then the thought of never having to go back to an office job, and spending the rest of my life drawing houses, well, that’s really appealing and maybe worth it?
But if… but if… argh.
Things I Like Best Alone on Flickr.
I have, since I drew this picture, been on a country walk with a friend, and it was actually perfectly agreeable. But the bulk of my walking is done alone, and though I used to do it fairly often in groups, I think I might actually prefer doing it alone.
korhwythkevrinek replied to your post “I’ve been thinking a lot about possibly changing jobs.[[MOR] I love…”It’s a shame, because I know there are parts of yr job that you really love, but it’s always a balancing act and when it tips too far it’s time to start looking for something…
Argh, this is too long to fit into the reply box so I’m going to ramble at you here.
I always have my family’s voices in the back of my head, telling me that no one gets to do their “dream job” except the very lucky or very connected - except my Mum, having told me that my whole youth (and squashed a lot of my dreams) eventually went back to school against all odds and people telling her that she would never do it - and *got* her dream job. So it is worth holding onto the ideal of a “dream job” if you have one, and finding slow ways to move towards it.
To me, the idea of going to grooming school sounds not just practical, but highly promising. For a start, it’s more of the stuff you like about the job (the animals) and less of what you hate (managing staff, dealing with people) and the independence and easier schedule. But yeah, it would involve an investment in both money and time, which is a huge leap to take, towards something you’re not sure you like. But do you know any professional groomers - that you work with, for example? - who you can talk to about how much time/effort/money it really takes to do the training? And maybe even sit in with them for a couple of day, to see what it’s really like to do their job all day long? Patience is something you can learn, and also, it’s easier to have the peace of mind to *be* patient when your life is more pleasant or to your liking - or even just simple things such as not working insanely long hours.
But I also think it’s a good idea to keep on brainstorming. You could take lessons in painting and sketching if pet portraiture is both something you’re interested in and lucrative enough to pursue! And also other things - would you be interested in training, for example? Could you ask around Ivan’s training group, what people do to earn money, and still be involved with animals? Is becoming a breeder an option? Working in something that wasn’t so public facing?
I really, really wish there were something like an adult version of a guidance counsellor/career advisor. Where you could go and tell them the bits of your job you like and hate, and they suggest something else you could do, or ways of training to move towards it. But this really is wishful thinking.
"Him dancing, him dancing, him rolling on the ground
Him moaning I can’t help myself”
(The best thing about this whole dance routine is how quickly he goes from completely freaking out dancing to just casually striding back to the mic, rolling up his sleeves like ‘NBD, nothing to see here…’)